The moment has yet to arrive but that doesn’t mean its not
there. Its bubbling and fizzling and
crackling all around me. A couple of
times, I’ve felt like these glistening stars were surrounding my face…like the
emoticon stars found in gmail….in essence, the moment has arrived but I haven’t
slowed down to take it all in….i know, you wonder what moment I am talking
about?? Well….not the party….but the moment of accepting that I have completed
this project that has been so far coming, so “Detox’d” (get it??), so shelved,
changed, forgotten, altered, edited, removed, changed, loved, sacrificed; man
the list could go on forever….even though I know its done and can be left as is
and be perfect, I haven’t sat still long enough since last Saturday to just sit
back and open my heart up and cry in the palm of my hands and laugh at the wall
while swimming in my accomplishment. I
will. In due time. I’ve been too busy planning the party,
getting it together, hiring my assitants, which has finally been done, etc etc
etc….and I have a show tomorrow and the Pink Bag Party is Saturday, so its
still going. I expect to only be able to
decompress and see how I’m feeling about this whole thing after the party is
over, when my brain is then allowed to really take in the whole thing. Christmas will follow soon after, as will New
Years, which leads up to my birthday, so somewhere in between all this, I will
be able to look at what I’ve done. And
be proud. But for now, the cd soiree has
to be on point, just the way I see it.
Which brings me to this blog. I know people are wondering whats up with the
party. Is it invite only? If so, why?
What does that say about the ppl NOT invited? Who does she think she is? Etc…..well…allow me to break it down and if
you are not here to read this blog, then perhaps you never cared, didn’t care
enough or just will never know and not be there. Otherwise, if you are reading, you will
hopefully walk away with understanding and joyfulness and will be RSVPing
today.
So here it is:
I have an intimate evening planned. Its not gonna be an jY Feature set. Its not going to be an all the best artists
in the city lined up to perform. This “soiree”
will be about celebration. It has an MTV
Unplugged sort of vibe and is really personable and of value. Its my night.
And although it IS my night, I want to celebrate you all. And this will make more sense when the day
comes, but I want to give back by way of performance to all of you who have
supported me, be it from day one or starting in the last hour. It doesn’t matter. In my eyes, a supporter is just that: a
supporter. A fan is a fan. Time serves no purpose in this instance. With that said, I don’t want ppl to come
because they didn’t have anything else to do.
I don’t want ppl to stray in or happen upon whats going on. I want ppl who WANT to be there, to be there;
no matter who you are or what you look like or how long you’ve known (or known
of) me.
IF YOU WANT TO BE THERE, YOU ARE INVITED! Its that
simple. But the space is limited as
well. So I have to have an active count
of ppl attending by the first (even if it changes) just so I know if I need to
make alterations (such as changing venues, figuring out seating, etc)…..i am by
no means a flawless individual, so I do not expect a flawless night, but I do
want to do all in my power to make as close to flawless as I can get it. Making sure ppl have somewhere to sit is
highly important. Making sure the is
enough room for “the show”, the performer(s), the cds and extra stuff, AND the
audience is highly important. Now I’m
going to be honest: I am TERRIFIED of
not having many ppl there. I truly
am. Which might be secretly part of
initial reasoning of invites because I can keep an active count on who all is
coming so I know what to expect and don’t wind up surprised when its just me
and four other ppl. I don’t say that for
attention purposes or for ppl to say “girl you know you are loved”. I have no doubt that I am loved and
respected even, but I am so scared of having this special night planned and it
not be anyone there. Lots of RSVP’s have
come in, so I know it will be some ppl there but that doesn’t stop me from
fearing the weather, life or just whatever the devil can come up with. But I won’t let that fear stop me from
thinking like I will have arena of ppl because the truth is, even if its me and
three other folks, those ppl mean something and clearly so do I ….my life is
worth more than being looked down upon by my fam….i’m more than a woman with no
one to love my success with me. I am
more than a disappointment, a college dropout (geeez I’m going back again), I’m
more than an ex-stripper, an unmarried lonely woman or a dog owner with no kids
of her own. I am accomplished. And I am only such because of the awesome ppl
I have met along the way. And we will
feel that that evening!!! And I want ANYONE who WANTS to be there and
can be there to MARK YOUR CALENDAR and just shoot me an email, facebook,
tweet, text, message or wall post to say
“I’m coming” …..you don’t need an invitation to get in. you just need to let me know so I can keep a
head-count. I need to know by Dec 1 so
if something needs to change (such as venue), it can within a reasonable time
and so as not fuck up the flow.
So there it is.
Please come if you want.
Just please let me know. I want
you there. You are not, not invited
because you aren’t a part of the cool kids.
If you love me, then I think you are the coolest person ever!! (lol)…just
that simple. If you want to celebrate
me, purchase the cd and leave with a sense of unity that you may have never
felt before, please come. This night is
about me, it is my night, but this is just as much YOUR night …everything that I
have come up with, put together or brainstormed is not to impress you, but to
show you the same love you shown me over time (or in the last 24 hrs, 2 wks, 3
months or whatever)!!!! This is
it. Now, shall we celebrate??
Your
Presence Has Been Requested
To celebrate with Ms.
januarieYork
The release of her
first full length cd: “La Douleur eXquise ‘the eXquisite pain’”
On
December
17, 2011
For details on place
& time, please inbox Ms York via fb, twitter, gmail, hotmail, blog, phone….anyway
you know how to….
PLEASE
RSVP BY DEC 1, 2011, 12am.
Mark Your
Calendars.
It won’t
be the same without YOU!
I love you endlessly
& thank you from the truest bottom to top of my heart and soul.
-love, jY
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