Ghost in the Machine

Vibe with me really quick. I once read that Aquarian's are known for using music to express how they feel.....this couldn't be more of the truth if i painted it true colors.....and right now, on this day, in this moment of time in my life, THIS song......smdh....


there are many songs that can chronicle how i am feeling
but this song right now.....
there is not possibly another song that can lay me out, line for line for line....i mean each and every single damn one of these lines is line EXACTLY what im thinking....*sigh*...im in the thick of something nasty....it really hit home last friday at my dad's mom's funeral....every since then, its been a downward spiral to misery.....i have never felt more unwanted ...but whats worse, i dont know exactly WHO i am unwanted from....and its spilling out all over and around me....and this is my life. today.
i...feel like a ghost. and its painful.

Tell me where am I supposed to go?
And who am I supposed to believe.
If only you knew what I knew.
Then you could see just what I see.

So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

You say I look fine, if only you knew what's on my mind.
You'd see a whole different sign, I couldn't show you even if I tried.
I must have got lost in time when I found out I was only free to be, where ever I want to be.

Some say I'm out of sight, how ironic and that we're all so blind.
If you could open up your eyes, you could see what I couldn't describe.
And then, you'd see the signs, and then your soul would be set free, and then you'd be released.

So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

Tell me where am I supposed to go.
And who am I supposed to believe.
If only you knew what I knew.
Then you could see. (Hey)

So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

And I'm terrified, like I've seen a UFO.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

(I go)
(A UFO)
(And I'm so tired of hiding, I've been running, I've been trying, to get away, to get away)

So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

~b.o.b.