Skies Are Grey
“You
gotta make a decision on how you want to be remembered”
~Patrick
‘COMDOT’ Stuckey’
A few weeks back, I had the opportunity to not only
perform at, but to bear witness to Patrick “COMDOT” Stuckey making his own
history at his album release party for the three year in the making
long-awaited CD entitled The Grey Maxell LP . But before there was a release
party, there was an interview that took place on the grounds of the
Indianapolis Art Museum between Comdot and myself, of which I was able to learn
a lot about the man, the artist and the album.
COMDOT |
Patrick has been
working on this album for quite a while now or as he puts it “all my life”. He
comes from a family of singers and also shares the talent himself, but he
believes his true gift is hip hop. Someone once told him that he would NEVER be
able to rhyme or make it as a rapper. He took those words as inspiration to
make it happen. In 1999, he started off
as a battle rapper with a lot of anger and frustration. He released an EP
entitled “Pushing Dope”, of which he produced the whole album. In the time that
has elapsed since then, Stuckey has endured several life changes and losses, growth
and growing children that now look up to him. As with any great work of art-in-the-making,
Stuckey has suffered more than his fair share of setbacks: corrupted files,
trouble with other artists, studio issues and then the biggest issue that many
of other artists can relate to: “I wasn’t ready.”
In August 2014, a bad
car accident threatened to take him from hip hop for good. Friendships and the
power of his own resilience were tested but that’s the thing about art. If it’s
embedded in your soul, no matter what the mind tells us in the moment, stopping
is hardly ever an option. Patrick used the accident to step his focus up.
“This album is
the first time I’ve done music where I’ve meshed both worlds together – the
persona and the man”.
~COMDOT
I’m of the belief that
an artist can feel it in their soul in a distinct manner when it’s
‘time’ to birth their next (or first) project. For Stuckey, the time is now but
before this could come into fruition he had to make a huge life decision: he
packed up and left Indy for Charlotte, NC. He promised his son he would be back
before his fourth birthday. He left with only $100 in his pocket and ran out of
gas right at the Welcome to North Carolina sign.
via GIPHY
via GIPHY
The plan: take a
sabbatical from music and “touch home”, “kick back” and “reintroduce” himself
to the his former community and ultimately reconnect with self. In effort to
help keep focus off of music and free his mind, Stuckey, who is also a
producer, went so far as to sale ALL of his music equipment in effort to break
from the torment of all. He immersed himself heavily into the apostolic church,
attending services three days a week and “searching for enlightenment.”
“You have to isolate
yourself”, he says.
After receiving the
centering that he needed, Patrick kept the promise he made to his son by
returning prior his fourth birthday. The biggest lesson he got from his time in
North Carolina: “It’s ok if you tell the truth. As long as you’re telling the
truth and you’re helping someone by telling your truth. [It’s] your story, good
or bad, just tell the truth.”
“It was a reset,” he
says.
With
that reset, he promised himself he would get back into music...seriously this
time.
Enter COMDOT.
“…and we let the
tape play”
COMDOT strives to be
better than his predecessors. He considers himself a “student of the game” and
has studied everyone from Nas, Big Daddy Kane and KRS-1 to Tupac and Biggie and
of course many more.
“People who push
boundaries inspire me,” he says. “I study them to find out what makes them
great and what makes me great. It’s about being timeless. Every Mother’s Day I
expect to hear Dear Mama. Every Halloween I expect to hear Thriller. You got
records that stick with people. You got so many geniuses who aren’t here in the
physical but their art is still revered. Their value has increased with time.
You’re supposed to want to do something with your art.”
He also says that
people need to put a higher demand on quality music and hold artists to a
higher standard. “Stop chasing what everyone else is chasing. You as an artist
have to purge yourself of any other influences,” he says. “There aren’t enough
hip hop records for women (i.e. Keep Your Head Up by Pac and I Know I Can by
Nas). I think you can give women empowerment. You got sisters, moms, you might
have a daughter. Even if you don’t do it for the whole album, give them
something.”
I couldn’t agree more.
We are living in an era of music where everything is
microwaved and shipped to our ears as quickly as it was recorded. Beats are
recycled, as are lyrics and flows and hip hop shows have become more of a mic
mosh pit and less about quality lyrics and powerful energy. The Grey Maxell LP
release party was devoid of those painful woes. The darkly lit room, which was
rather cool due to the night’s air and small but open space, quickly filled
with men and women both artists and fans. Kenny Kix, DJ Metronome, Old Soul,
Pope Adrian Bless, who also performed, were some of the faces I spotted. I
stayed in the cut. I’m always in the cut. People tend to not know I’m in the
room until I’ve appeared on the stage. I’m a ghost writer. * wink*
“I don’t believe in limitations.”
When asked what keeps
him going, COMDOT says his children and the fact that he knows there are people
who don’t want to see him succeed. He’s unwavering about his boys. “I’ve shown them too much about this not to
follow through and deliver. They’ve seen the product, the shirts - I have to show
them that if you can think it, you can do it.” He brought his kids into the
studio with him during some of the recording for the album. “As a man, I can’t
teach my kids that they can accomplish anything they want to if I don’t do
things for myself and leave it on the table. The album is a blueprint for them.
As they grow and go through things, they got to understand you have to come out
of it.
COMDOT is adamant about
raising future young men who know how to reach beyond the limits society will
try to place upon them. He is also a stickler for the truth. Both of these
passions, his children and his truth, are delivered on the Grey Maxell album,
which is available now for downloading on Bandcamp (see flyer). “If you can
look at yourself in the mirror and you lying and you can live with that, then there’s
something wrong with that, says COMDOT.
“When I say
‘COM’, yaw say ‘DOT’:
COM (DOT!!!)
COM (DOT!!!)”
~12.16.15, The
Grey Maxell Album Release Party
via GIPHY
There weren’t many special guests (only a handful) and those who dared to step foot on the stage and warm it up for the main star did so gracefully. The lyrical content was stellar and full of substance, love and life. The presence of each performing artist, all MCs except myself, birthed the type of energy that creates fans and supporters. Once Comdot took the stage after a series of chants of his name, he jumped right into paying tribute to his fallen brother, Skylar Jones and gave us a short background on the premise behind the album title.
“I alone am not
the com dot; I’m just the spokesman for the network.”
~Comdot
The Grey Maxell LP is
an experience. It is a venture into the mind of a man, an artist, a father, a
brother and overall, a force of energy having a human experience. The
difference between Patrick the man and Comdot the persona are joined in unison
on this album and this was intentional. “The album itself is literally a tale
of going from a boy to a man. I hope people that walk away with the album get a
better picture of the man.” When listening to the album, you definitely get a
picture of one man’s journey. From heartfelt tracks such as ‘Dear I’anah’ to
inspirational songs (Our Song ft Renee King who’s vocals are an incredible
addition) and the smooth sounds of ‘The Connect (remix)’, which has a beautiful
Rakim-vibe to it, The Grey Maxell LP is definitely in a league of its own
plays. It’s not something you want to skip. In fact, you WANT to listen to
every song.
Remember when tapes were a thing? Remember the times
we would listen to tapes until we broke them, only to perform cassette-surgery
to get them in working condition again? During that era, the pursuit and passion of
recording was full of urgency.
Says Stuckey, “Back in the day of cassettes your album had to be dope because
no one wants to fast forward through a whole project.” The album’s title was
inspired by a series of things: the mixtapes both Patrick and his father used
to make (on grey Maxell tapes), a joint project that was supposed to happen
years ago with producer D.R. Mayfield (who used to make beats on grey Maxell
tapes) and finally the concept of creating a work of art that people don’t
desire to get away from. He wanted to create a classic, timeless album with a lot of sweat, heart and soul.
Patrick ‘Comdot’
Stuckey wanted to make the Grey Maxell LP a work of success. “Good health, good
wealth, spiritual health, mental stability, genuine love [and] family; that’s
success”, says Stuckey. He adds, “I just want people to have a closer
relationship with the music again. I hope the Grey Maxell will fill the void
because there is nothing out there that sounds like this album.”
And when you take a listen to the album that is
exactly what you will receive from it: a feeling of success and an infectious
relationship with the music and lyrics.
***This article is in dedication to Skylar Jones,
brother & executive producer on the album. #RestPeacefully
~januarie